Reflections

The two previous posts described a situation where Cora spanked me because she thought my behaviour was inappropriate.  In fact in both cases she was a bit angry at me and while I suggest that we need to be careful when spanking while angry, in this case it resulted in Cora letting go and delivering one of her most 'effective' spankings. 

Yes, it was painful for me but then (as is said so many times), a spanking is supposed to hurt if its effective. Last weeks two spankings resulted in both Cora and I in feeling really good about what had happened. Looking back, I know that I crossed lines and deserved 'good, hard spankings'. Cora felt that she had expressed herself in delivering them and that she had provided consequences for my misbehavior. And most importantly the air had been cleared and we both had that magickal opportunity to 'blow off some steam'. 

And speaking of blowing off steam, just last night Cora was getting irritated from something we were watching on TV.  This was totally not something I did.  Really!  However, I soon found myself bent over and Cora applied about two dozen swats from two of her paddles.  Later she shared with me, "I sure felt better after paddling you!"  I have to admit that my part in making her feel better made me feel better too.  Even with a glow in my bottom.  Hey, I have admitted before I like being spanked by Cora.

And today, Cora decided to apply a hook to the table that sits close to where she sits in our living room where we spend much of our time during the day.  She now has one of her hairbrushes within reach for any time she decides she needs it.

With all of the progress Cora was making in taking on her role in our Female Led Relationship, I thought back to the last time Cora had reverted to her 'old ways' of dealing with a misbehaving partner - The (dreaded) Silent Treatment.  I looked back at our blog posts and found the description of that event on July 2, 2010. 

Wow, almost two years ago!  Since then Cora has dealt with my behaviour through our disciplinary process.  She has really stuck with it and has not deviated.  We are most happy with the results and while I sometimes pay the price with a sore bottom for a few days, its so much better than the alternative.

So I couldn't help but reflect even further back in time.  Long ago the idea of being with a partner who wouldn't hesitate to spank me was a total fantasy.  And while previous partners have engaged in my spanking fantasies, no one has fulfilled my desire (need?) to be spanked by a strong, authoritative (and yes, attractive) woman like Ms. Cora. 

And if my most recent spankings are an indicator, it just keeps getting better and better.  Cora seems to be 'holding back' less and less as she realizes that the naughty, male backside can take a very hard spanking. She demonstrated that fact by blistering me twice in a row and only a few days apart.  And for me the cathartic feeling both before, during and after a thorough spanking is almost indescribable.

I think if you asked her, she would tell you that she had no idea what she was getting into when we started our relationship about 5-1/2 years ago.

"You want me to spank you???"

Well now, I think she would also tell you that there is no way she would go back.  She now knows the benefits of being the disciplinarian in our relationship along with the benefits of being with a man who loves to submit to her. 

And what a gift she has given to me:  To love me enough to apply discipline when I want and/or need it.